Dear John Mayer............

Why Is your love life such a mess? You're soo cute! and your songs are pretty awesome. Maybe you should stop dating celebrities and date someone normal? I mean you dated Taylor Swift, and how'd that turn out? Huh "Dear John"? Now I'm gonna give you the benefit of the doubt and hope that you can sort things out 'cause I'm sure once you find the one or someone better you'll work it out. It's just too bad 'cause I'm sure you're a great guy and boy do you have talent. (:

Well in other news........... I'm enjoying single life, flirting and such ;) Haha and I mean I don't need a boyfriend right now I'm good. I have good friends and a good family. I just wish my Mum would stop mentioning Jon. I mean I don't really wanna think about him right now 'cause he did this and she wasn't there to see his irrational acts or childish actions. Plus like I said I'm not putting up with him if he's gonna be like that. Hmmm..... Well I'm gonna take the hands-off approach and just see where things go......

Fuck You Dude.......

So way to creep on my blog.......Gosh my blog is a way for me to say how I feel in unedited terms. I write it all down and review it later. I'm a thinker and I over-think everything. The last post I wrote was so I could look at things and how the seem from the outside and other perspective. I have ears I can listen talk to me or call me don't write me a note trying to guilt trip me. I didn't get any of you're texts till like 5pm and you decided to creep out my blog and assume the worst!! I was going to give you a chance but since you assumed the worst and made an asshole move you lost it!! I am so done. I give up why oh why can't life be easier? Ugh!! :0 ):


I think I should just be single for a while. Just live the fun single life like I'm meant to and if something happens it happens. If someone I know realizes they like me then hey yay! but as of right now I don't really want to date anyone....... :[ I need to find a better job an keep myself above water..... That's all I have to say.

:(........ Bleh........UGH.......... FML............IDK......... :(

Oh boys we hate them but we love them......
So the guy who broke up with me wants me back........... I don't know what to do...... He's a really nice guy but I mean what if he changes his mind or gets scared again then what? Huh I'm SOL and back to square one! He's one of those guys who's like friends with lots of girls but is kinda country. And me, I'm an indie rock girl who loves colors and music and sleeping. I don't know I mean maybe I just want to be single....... As much of a nice guy as he is I don't know if he's right for me and as much as he's willing to make an effort I don't think I am. As my friend Dani would say he's not "Jewish" enough lol and that's just not kosher. lol Silly I know but I like it. I don't know what it is but guys who look Jewish just ahh I dunno I find them oh so attractive. I like never ever go for blonds unless they're soooo sooo hot!! I mean I'm only 20 he's 24 and he was engaged before. I don't know if he'll ever get over her and I don't know if I wanna take that chance. It makes me think of this song Talk You Down And Before The Worst by The Script. I love them btw.... I don't know I keep going over and over it. I mean maybe I should give him a chance but I maybe not........ My Mum says I should but I mean I don't know It's so complicated I mean one of my really good friends has a friend who I think is really cute and I could see where that goes and like I dated this guy around this time last year long distance, and he's one of my best friends and I don't know if I've always loved him why date someone else Oh I don't know I don't know..........

The Wisom Of A Good Friend.......

My FB Status Was......

I'm Only 20 And Yet I Feel The Need To Know The Meaning Of Life......

My friend Evon Commented and said:

"ive been there. well, you know what i mean lol. truly tho..."live" "breathe" and "enjoy" life as it comes to you. things will go up and things will go down. things wont always seem right, and things will sometimes make sense. thats part of ...the mystery, everyone perceives it differently and will go through there own cycle of curiousoity. think about how different you are now from when you came home from college. like, you went through your "own" meaning of life changing events. there is no set standard for a good life, a good meaning. wow. i had a good breakfast today, thats why im so philosophical. :) i heart youu."

 

True Friends Really Know How To Make You Feel Better :D

Sooo.... A Couple Things Have Changed And I'm Thinking Agian, Dangerous I Know........

Sometimes my life really does seem like a soap opera so I was dating this guy. It was only officially for like a week and then he decided that "we should just be friends" it came out of nowhere I mean like we barely were together then like we weren't it kinda make me feel like what was even the point? But life throws stuff at you sometimes that you just don't expect I've still got my friends. Evon was right I guess. I mean I was more shocked than anything and I realized all the friends I have the girls at work the ladies I used to work with at Starbucks and my best friend Ethan, too bad he lives so far away. I know if I still lived there or he lived here things would be different but it's tough 'cause he's not here but he is only a phone call away or a text away and I hope he know that about me too if he's happy about something he can just give me a call or send me a text. Last semester we were kind of dating but I mean we never got to be face to face :( except skype. Still through all that we're still really good friends. I still have the valentines card that he sent me last year I have most of it memorized too. It's a pretty special card : ) and it has Disney princesses on it :D. Life would be so different if I had just stayed at Disney or in Nash. Maybe I should just stop going over it in my head and let things flow. Hmmm gonnna go ponder agian.....

I Know I Don't Post Enough.....

Still looking for jobs life's the same old same old right now. Quit S-Bux Only working at Saladworks right now. But If I get a teller job Buh-Bye!! Tonight is my BFF Evon's big Black N White Formal B-Day party Soo!!! excited!! fingers crossed all goes well :D I'll let you know how goes. I'm dating this new guy super nice, super smart, :D Lots of Sparks :DD but we'll see how it goes. not much else to say really just thought I should update.......<3  :D

Sorry, Sorry, Sorry, I Know :(.....

I know I haven't posted in like 2 months!!!!!!!!!! ♫♪♫  I feel bad but I've been busy working two jobs and such. Ummm So BIG NEWS......... I broke up with Nate turns out him being so attentive and sweet turned into him smothering me and wanting me to spend what little free time I did have with him. I know I hurt him but Fuck like I'm 20 years old I don't wanna spend all my free time with some boy who still relies on his Mum for like everything. He can't do anything for himself the only reason he has a job now is because I told him he should get one and making him feel guilty 'cause I had two jobs and he didn't have any when he had plenty of time for one. Shit he only works like 2 days a week now anyways. All he did was whine and complain about it now. I dunno if I could date anyone that I already know it would either these two guy friends of mine who happen to have the same name. They're my friends and I feel like if I wanna date someone I wanna be their friend first before rushing into things and becoming a couple. Getting to know one another first is key. My friend Anthony from Florida is awesome if he wasn't so far away (I'm in PA) he would so be mine...... Or Ethan (he's in TN) I really did love him but I may never see him again. Gosh sometimes I make my life sound like a soap opera.

So I'm still trying to figure out my life too. I know right Fuck I need to make up my mind. If I had tons of money I probably would move to NY Or London and just live maybe go to school. :/ I dunno. Right  now it's looking like I'm quitting Starbucks and Saladworks to pursue a bank teller career and go back to school at night to get a business degree or an accounting degree maybe. Something basic and flexible.

I know that I want to get married and live the wife life but I wanna live the semi-luxurious wife life. I know it's simple but I love the idea of being in love and having kids the whole bit. I just need to find a doctor or lawyer or something you know.... But it has to be love..... ALWAYS LOVE OVER MONEY. ALWAYS.

Hmmm I think that's all I have to add for now...........

Sooo...........

I don't have much going on but I felt like I needed to update. I'm almost at the one month mark with Nate, and I really like him. Like I really really really like him!! I think he may be THE ONE!! I feel so sexy and smart and beautiful with him. He makes me feel so loved. I spend all my free time with him and he makes me feel so cherished. His Mom is great and she likes me. He just wants to spend all his time with me. I've fallen and I've fallen hard but I'm ok with it 'cause I know that he's there to catch me. I'm currently in utter bliss..............<3

Haven't Put One Up In A While So.......

This is how my life goes now. I kinda had a mental brush with death and thought I was dying 'cause I found a large mass in my left breast. I got it all checked out and all is ok. I then got my thyroid checked out but according to all the test all is clear. I'm only 20 so maybe it's my last all out growth spurt. That's what i'm thinking it is.

I also got me a boyfriend :) He's super sweet super caring and totally attentive, I think about him all the time and miss him whenever I'm not with him. He makes me feel super sexy all the time and like I'm all he needs. He's all I want and all I need. I want to spend all my time with him... :D Ahh So Happy Right Now!!!

Florida Or Bust.........

More like Florida was a bust!!! I had been planning this trip to Florida for at least 2 months maybe even 3. The people I had planned on staying with knew about it for a whole month but yet they forgot to mention that they were having second thoughts until I was 6 hours into my 12 hour drive (with a text saying I don't know how this is gonna work...) which was only the first leg of my driving. I still had another 10 hour drive after that. Then on our first night there was a huge argument and things just came to a head. I know they were both lying to us and trying to patch things up but if you're going to lie to us get your stories straight and the same so  we don't keep finding holes in what was said.

I hate that I put so much effort into this drive and so much money to get there and to get treated like I was an inconvenience most of the time isn't fair!! I went to visit to see if I would move back possibly even with  the friends I went to visit and that went down-hill super fast.

I'm always the person who puts in tons of effort and doesn't get anything back for it! Maybe I shouldn't even try anymore.................... Oh well all for now.......

FLORIDA!!!!

So I leave for FLORIDA, as in WDW in Florida tomorrow and I will hopefully be still working :D. I think this may be a turning point for me I'll either be sure of a possible future at Disney or I'll know about my future at home. I hope this will help me clear up some of the clouds in my head plus I get to see my bestest friend Rebekah!!!  Plus I get to drive My Dad's Car which is little but cute!! and has the best MPG so it'll cost less!! I Cannot wait hopefully all works out!!

I Get Bored Too Easy..............

Way way too easily!! I'm bored of my life and I've kind of been in a routine for about 3 months now and I'm bored. But then it may be partially because I feel like I have no social life and that I just go to work and sleep. Speaking of which I had a crazy dream last night.... It was about Ethan (A guy I kinda used to date...it's complicated) and he came to visit me and so did his family and we were so I love with one another. He bought me a new car and we we holding hands a bunch and cuddling and such. Then I woke up. I don't know like I still like him but since I'm in PA and he's in TN it's not like we can date. I don't plan on going back to TN anytime soon.  Anyways I digress..... I don't know if I'm going back to school 'cause I sure can't pay for it myself.  I want a degree but why go back to school if I don't know what to study. I kind of fly in multiple directions and I can't find one area that I am completely drawn to. Emily has music, Alex and Bekah have graphic design Anthony has film. I mean I kinda had film but then I haven't gotten back to it you know. I really need to see what I'm drawn to I know I'm creative but I Love Math, Music, Movies, Helping Others, And Taking Things Apart, I can't really stick to one though since I get bored so easily. Too easily. I love certain T.V. shows too. And maybe I use to word Love too lightly. I guess I want to find love and feel accomplished. Funny thing is I thought that I was the more on track of my 2 siblings and me. Funny thing is they're both graduated from school and have found their significant others. Me I'm trying to decide whether I'm going back to school or not and I don't really have any dating prospects. Oh well tis life "They Say That, What Doesn't Kill Us Makes Us Who We Are.." Maybe I should just be a writer. Then I'd probably just write about my problems. I am aware of the fact that I complain too much. I hate that I'm making my parents unhappy because I'm unhappy. I shouldn't be unhappy I have 2 jobs I'm healthy I have parents who care about me I have friends. I dunno what's missing.......... Oh well either way I'm gonna keep analysis 'cause that's what I do... Nothing else to say today.........

Just Gotta Say.........

Reid Scott

There's This Guy That I Work With At The R-Phils Who Is SOOOOOOOOOO!!! Attractive, Ahhh!!! But I Can't Really Seem To Make My Brain Function Around Him!! I Can't Strike Up Conversation Therefore Giving No Reason For Reinforced Conversation Outside Of Work And Boy Would I Love That!! He Looks Kinda Like Brendan From My Boys (Reid Scott). I Like Am In Love With This Guys Constant 8 O'Clock Shadow He's Just Perfect. I Wish I Could Talk To Him!!

This Time Baby I'll Beeee........... BULLETTPROOFF

So I guess I'm partially over the whole Nashville thing but I'm thinking about my life (like always, considering my options) Maybe moving back to Florida and working at Disney again. While working at a Starbucks down there too. Hopefully switching to a PhotoPass position at Disney and maybe focusing on photography in general. I think that's the best solution I've come up with so far.

FFFFUUUUCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I am sooooooooo FRUSTRATED!!!!!!! I left some of my stuff in TN at the school I used to go to with my friend Amy. Well turns out that all my stuff has been 'discarded' including my guitar that I got for Christmas from my parents. It cost $300.00 and my $250.00 video camera. I left the expensive things behind 'cause I didn't want to crush them into my car and have them break. I was planning on going back for them. I wanted to go back sooner but since I've been working full time I found the time to go in about 3 weeks so I e-mailed the school........
According to the housing girl she called me and left me a message. (I haven't heard from her since I called her about 2 months ago when she said she'd call be back the next day) and I hear back from her today that all my stuff is gone!!!!!!!
I am beyond angry!! and Upset and frustrated. I should've heard something like a "last call" before disposing of my stuff!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

E-Town........

So I've decided that I really miss my old school Elizabethtown College... It might be my friends it might be the having a routine....Either way I miss it and I kinda want to go back. Maybe I should go back. I'll just get a simple degree to be a producer, maybe and English degree or something in Math.............. Yea I can't make up my mind on anything..................

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I Wish I could just figure this out!!!!!!!!!

Life......

So I don't wanna live my life in a Dead End Job. I Don't want to work at Starbucks for too long it's just a constant flow of income to pay for bills....
I want to fall in love
I want to see the world
I want to know who I am
I'd love to be famous
I'd love to be rich
I get bored really easily, I want to be held, I need a hug one of those tight everything is gonna be alright hugs. I hate that I obsess over finding solutions. I wish I could figure this all out. I wish I would be happy about the way my life is turning out. I wish I had a clear plan for my life or at least a plan that I could rely on. I wish my Mom wouldn't crush my dreams or my plans. Sure it's not all her fault but it doesn't help that she decides what I can and cannot do. I feel so stressed out a good amount of the time.

I wish I didn't over think and over analyze or that I could find a way to work my over-thinking and analyzing into a career a well paying career, not a job a career.

I'm trying to not complain as much but I guess I find it hard when I'm not really happy with the state of my life right now. Sure I could turn to God but it's like that song by The Script "Breakeven" ~I'm Still Alive But I'm Barely Breathing, Just Prayin' To A God That I Don't Believe In~ That's how I feel....

Trying to figure it all out.......

Shadow......

Look At Love,
It's Nothing But A Shadow
Where You Saw A Heart -
That Was Hollow
Look At You,
You've Been Chasing Shadows.

So I'm Totally Bored With My Life, I Get Bored To Easily And I Have Lots On My Mind. I Keep Having Moments At Work Where Something Irks Me And I Want To Or Am On The Brink Of Crying. At Disney The Good Balanced Out The Negative If Not Outweighed It, And At Starbucks I Feel Like I Get The Shitty End Of The Stick Too Often. I Wish I Could Just Be Sure About My Future And Know What Decisions I Should Make And Where I Should Let My Life Lead. I Love Baseball, I'd Love To Be A Producer. But Then I Have The Flight Attendant Thing To Get To Travel. I Need To Learn More About Myself Really. I Know I Want To Fall In Love And Get Married That's One Of The Things I Really Want To Do. I Wanna Fall In Love, The Kind Of Love That Inspires Romance Novels. I Want Others To Be Jealous, I Want My Heart To Race Forever. First Kiss To Fell Like Every Kiss. I Guess That's Asking Too Much. But With That Intensity I Won't Get Bored Like I Have In Past Relationships.
I'm An Analyzer. I Analyze and Over Analyze Everything. I Like To Sit And Figure Things Out. I Like Making Things And Taking Things Apart. I Guess I'm A Ball Of Contradictions. I'm Not Easy To Figure Out But If You're Willing To Put In The Time And Effort......
Maybe I Scare People Off. Maybe I Just Piss Them Off I Sure As Hell Know People Piss Me Off All The Time. I Love Music And Movies And If I Could Figure Out Something That Involves That, I'd Love That. But I Have No Musical Talent. I Like To Think I'm Really Good At Music Selection, I Could Do Something With That.

We Are Born With The Melody We Were Children In The 90's Gonna Hear It Again Tonight!
I'm Really Loving Steel Train Lately!!! They Are Speaking To My Soul!!!
That's What I Love About Music It Hits You Deep And Holds You Tight. It Makes Everything All Right. It's Like Someones Sharing Them Self/ves With You.

Hmm All For Now............ Maybe More Later

Random I Know..........

I Want To Fall In Love With A Lyricist..........♥

We Could've Had Something, Yea Something, Maybe Something If We'd Decided To Be In The Same Place, And Maybe If I Just Get To See You Face To Face, One More Time.

I Don't Know What To Say Or Do...But I Don't Want To Get Back Together With You.

I'm No Fool For You, But I'm A Fool For Love That's True.

I Am Your Trampoline, I Am Your Tra Tra Tra Trampoline....
( I'm Here To Help You Bounce Back )

Research...........

So today I'm planning on looking up flight prices and what I need as in qualifications for school (Flight Attendant School) I'll have to make sure that I measure up and that all seems to work out. I'm sure I'll be able to afford a flight since I'm only buying one way. Well I'll keep you updated....

U.K. Maybe?............

So this whole Flight Attendant thing seems like it's kinda falling into place. I have the idea that my current placement at Starbucks may give me the ability to transfer to another Starbucks in the U.K. specifically the Buttermarket one. I also plan on getting used to the time zone to then, move in with my aunt and uncle (maybe) so that my uncle who works for British Airways can carpool with me for me to become a flight attendant with British Airways. It seems like it may all just line up very well. I'm going to research some more but this may just be the solution.......... :D Fingers Crossed.

Solution Maybe?.....

I may have found a solution for the rest of my life. Maybe a flight attendant because I love to travel, I love meeting new people and I could live in a major city which I also love!! It may just be the perfect solution. I'm going to look into it more.... but I do think this sounds promising.

If I Had The Money....

I'd travel to all the places I want to go to. I want to go to NYC again, I need to go back to Nashville to get my stuff. I've always wanted to visit Chicago. If I could I'd just travel all over the U.S.A. and then I'd go to Europe. I'm kind of contemplating moving back to the U.K. I don't know maybe if I can go to school there it can help me to get over there. I'll have to figure it all out and really look over the possibilities. I feel like I'm at a crossroads or the edge of a cliff. It's not that I have a lot on my mind it's that I have so many choices. I wish I had found one thing I'm really good at and I could've just latched onto that. Used it to form my life around. I'm okay at lots of things but there's nothing I'm outstanding at. Therefore nothing I currently see myself doing in the future. I know I want to get married fall in love that whole bit. That's if it's in the cards. I guess I just have to wait and see but I HATE the idea of waiting around and for my life to happen.

If I had the guts I would do what I want to get the guy that I miss spending time with and getting to see. I'd be who I want to be. I'd have found some way to be back at school and I'd know who I want to be and where I'm going with my life or I'd be okay just spending time with the guy, he'd be my guy, us swooning over one another. I'd have him and he'd be all I need.

Oh If only life were that easy........

I Officially Have No Life :/

So I have the day off and I'm spending my only day off work...not even leaving the house. :/ I'm going to stay home bake, clean and do laundry. I wish i had some sort of social life but then maybe it's good because then I'd be too superficial. I'm already obsessed with Starbucks, well not obsessed but I do love it and that's why I mostly love my job.

While typing this I'm trying to think of a hobby or something to occupy my time. I'm thinking baking since I love to bake but that wouldn't be that good for my health since I happen to have a huge sweet tooth and not too much will power. And while typing that I'm thinking maybe I should research some form of healthy way to substitute in baking that makes things much healthier. One day maybe I can open a healthy well rounded coffee shop with a bakery of healthy but DELICIOUS treats. Hmmmmmm I wonder.

Two years ago I was all about a video editing career and I guess I truly see now that's not where I'm meant to be. I'm still not a hundred percent on any part of my life I truly have to figure things out. Then in all truth I just want to be happy and be around people who make me happy. I don't know in the slightest what I want to do with my life as a career. Maybe I'll go back to school maybe I'll just work my way up. Maybe I'll move back to the U.K. and find myself there. I don't really know I just know that I love meeting new people, creating new things and I love the idea of true love and I really hope that one day I'll find it but that is going to be a whole other story.......

World Cup

U.S.A. V. Slovenia 2:2
So the ref for this match was an ass calling for stupid things like "hand balls" and such. And It seemed like he was handing out yellow cards like they were candy. And I didn't even know that Slovenia was a country until today either. And it's actually not a tiny country.

England V. Algeria 1:1
Well England didn't loose so that's good. I didn't get to watch the game so I have nothing else to say.

That's All For Now :::::::::DDDDD

Starbucks :D

I have landed a job at Starbucks!! Yay!!! So I've been working Like non-stop this past two weeks. I have this job plus the Reading Phillies job. Since I'm officially not going back to school I'll be working full time. I guess that's a good thing. It's nice too that I've found some new friends who think it's smart that I'm not wasting time trying to figure my life out in school when I'm not 100% on what to be studying. Not much else is really going on.......... I'll check back in later.

So.........

I've decided that I'm not going to go back to school... I'm going to work full time and save up money. I may end up going to school later or night school. I'm thinking Culinary baking and pastry arts/management. Really I have to save up money before I do anything else. I don't regret going to school I just wish it wouldn't have cost as much. I just landed a job at Starbucks and I'm also working for the Reading Phillies. My Mum was right I don't know for sure what I want to do so it's not worth going to school and wasting money if I'm not going to use my degree. So like I said only time will tell. It'll all work out in the end. I'm young I have plenty of time to figure things out.

HOME......

So I just got home on Friday (today's Sunday) and my Mum proceeds to tell me that I can't attend Full Sail, the only way I can go back to Florida is if it's somehow Disney related. According to my Mum Full Sail isn't a good school and she doesn't want me going there. She also says we can't afford it. It's supposed to cost like 70,000 but with aid I only owe right under 30,000 right now. The only thing is that it might be hard for me to get a loan since I'm technically a dependent for taxes and such. But I really really want to go back to Florida and be with my friends, go to Full Sail and work hard, find a good Job and have things work out.

I feel so behind in life, I'm on my third school, my Brother and Sister are graduating this summer and are both considering marriage with their current beau right now, I'm not dating anyone have some school done and seems like I still have a lot to figure out. I know I don't want a cubical or office job. I want to be out and do stuff. I love movies and want to for sure to do something with movies. Directing-No I'm not hardcore enough for that. And Producing I'm not good enough at getting leverage on people or convincing them to take the hit now for more later. It's the behind, putting together editing and cinematography, to look at things differently and show another way of thinking or moving.



I really need to figure this out........

Moving In And Moving Up.......

So I'm going to be moving in with some of my best friends!!! We found an awesome apartment that is 4 bedroom with 2 baths, and 5 of us will be living there!! It'll be soo swell. I cannot Wait!! It's under $300.00 a month Which is epic!! I Can't wait to have my own room again!!! It'll be soo nice!!! Getting to live with some of my favorite people. Getting to live surrounded by fun and comfort!! I am so excited! I'll keep updated, Oh and only 11 days till I fly Home!!!!!!

Since All That.....

So since my concussion lots has happened. Watkins is screwing me over and with all the money I pay to go to school I'm not putting up with that so, I'm transferring to Full Sail University it's down here in Florida so I'll still be able to work for Disney. I start back at Full Sail in June which means that I will only be home for about a month and will miss both of my sibling's graduations! :( I'm such a bad sister!! I don't have much else to add.

Concussion Catch Up.......

So here's what's happened haven't blogged in a while lots of things have been going on! First of I didn't get the College Humor internship but that's ok 'cause I landed on with PLUS MEDIA as an editor, not assistant not intern to but as an editor!! Starting 3 days a week in NYC! And I still have the summer job with the Reading Phillies!! It's so awesome! This summer is gonna rock!! The other things that have happened, well I got another concussion I think it's my fourth so I had no need to go to the hospital. It's what ever just nothing that can thin my blood and I'm ok think I need to take it slow for a while anyways. GLEE returns tonight!! I am so excited for this!! That's about all that's going on. Lots of decisions to make too I don't know where I'm going to be this fall I want to make sure I'm at a school that I love! It's such a big decision and should have time taken on it not made overnight. Until the next time..............

Who To Choose.....

So, I met someone the other day who works for showtime in NYC and I've been emailing with him, and he has some connections with another company in NYC, and then I'm waiting to hear back from College Humor. And I plan on applying for some other internships or jobs in other places. I don't know what will work best for me I do kind of feel as if College Humor is too vulgar and not funny anymore.But I've been wrestling with the decision. I will get back to you and let you know.......

Don't You Wish You Were At Disney Too?

This past week I've been allover the place just at my regular location. In the front of the park and in the back of the park. I love that I get to meet so many different people from all over the world. It's unbelievable to me that so many people can be in one place in only a few hours let alone all day. With the fact that it's also spring break and all the High Schools/Middle Schools are here on band trips and senior trips there are so many people coming into the parks in groups. Lately it seems like time is flying by I called College Humor to make sure that I was going to hear from them and turns out that I have to wait until the end of the month so about ten more days! It's going to come slow and fast all at once. I hate waiting so much. Hopefully I'll get the internship, I'm gonna apply for some others too as fall backs. If nothing works out I already have a fall back lined up at home for the summer to shoot games for the local baseball team and work at the local Barnes and Noble. I have a back up all planned out. Well I'm off to bed I have a busy day tomorrow.

............

I haven't really been up to much this past week. Just going to class and going to work. I have a few things due this week since we're reaching Midterms in a couple weeks. I have a paper to write that involves 2 interview and I am totally not looking forward to tackling it. I am not a fan at all of writing papers. I guess I should just suck it up and start it early so I can actually get it done at an appropriate time instead of putting it off and doing a bad job of it. I don't have a fun Disney picture this week either. I've been kinda sick all week so I guess I didn't leave my apt. unless I needed to be somewhere. That's all for now just a quick update.

Oscars and Such.........

So a big high five to Kathryn Bigelow to being the first woman EVER to win for best director! She's totally paving the way for some of us hopefuls out there!! I wasn't disappointed by the Oscars but I had hoped that District 9 would've won at least one award. The Hurt Locker cleaned up and Precious did well with it's nominations and a win for Mo'Nique. I really need to sit down and watch all of the top ten films that were up and all the others that were nominated. But in general the Oscars went well.


In other news I have my CollegeHumor.com interview today and I just can't sit still!! they're based in NYC so i'll be closer to home but I am so nervous I feel like a trampoline or a spring I don't know but my stomach won't stop turning over. I can barely believe it! Ahhhh!! I can't breathe!! I just have to concentrate on breathing and keeping my brain around until the interview's over!

Busy, Busy.....

I've been so busy with all my homework this past week and trying to get everything out of the way so tonight (Oscars Night!) I have time to myself so that I can watch the Oscars in their entirety. I am so excited for the Oscars!! I've had a lot of fun this past week and had some exciting moments. You never know who you will run into in Disney. I met a guy who works for Showtime (the channel that does Dexter and Weeds) and he took my info and is going to contact me about a possible internship. I also heard back from College Humor.com about interning for them over the summer in NY and they are planning on interviewing me over the phone next week. I found a rice krispies treat as big as my head well the bosses head.

Intense right!?
Well I better go time for me to report to work. I'll put something up about the Oscars tomorrow.

DAK=Disney's Animal Kingdom

So for the week I've been deployed to Africa at the Moombasa Marketplace in Animal Kingdom. I actually like it a lot more than I expected. The only thing I don't like is my costume or as I like to call it my MuMu it's huge and drowns me! Plus it's highly unattractive. Oh the suffering we go through to keep the magic alive. :D I like getting to call all the kids princesses and explorers. It makes me so happy to bring a smile to a child's face. Since I have to be really vocal and outgoing this job does wonders for my self esteem and conversation starting skills. I even met people from my home town in England today! I get to meet people from all over the world. This is such an awesome opportunity!!

So...

This week has been pretty busy, I've had a meeting with the T.V. channel that Disney runs locally down here and they don't have a budget right now for me to join the channel. since they're only 2 years old and are still sort of a trial they need to continue to keep things running and bring them up before they can add anyone else to the team. It was very helpful though because they gave me the ability to reach out to some other outlets within the Disney company that actually may have more of an ability to actually gain a position that is more oriented towards my major. I found out that Hollywood Studios has it's own news channel called Studios news and It's ESPN the weekend so that means that there will be a ton of athletes in town.

Disney Classes

I finally got to start my Disney classes, I had creativity and innovation which I had at 8:30 am it was fun, it's a class that allows the people in class to be creative and themselves. It also allows us to record all our thoughts and use our own ideas as a main subject for the class. My second class was Marketing You, it was about discovering yourself and what your major should be or your field of study. I'm sure I won't get class credit for this class because it's not really part of the curriculum at Watkins. Both of my classes were fun I enjoyed getting back into a routine. I like that my classes aren't so complex that I find completely interesting. I have homework assignments every week which usually consist of a lot of reading and some sort of short writing assignment. Two classes a week every week until I get done here in may. I'll keep updates on what I learn about myself and Disney in my classes.

Recap

Well right now seems like a good time to recap the past 3 and a half week of working and living in Disney. I didn't get placed in an area that can further my major and I understand that I may not seem to have the knowledge but I do. So on my day off last week, well actually I went in early before I had to work. I went and talked to the stage manager of the American Idol attraction that we have in Hollywood studios and spoke to him about possibly transferring. He told me that all I have to do is submit my resume through casting if I want a full time position and if I want a part-time one I have to go through the union. I plan on going through with all options and finding out what I can do and taking the same approach with the Lights, Motors, Action! attraction that we have and The Indiana Jones attraction also. Disney gives you opportunities for you to grow within the company. Most of my managers began in the college program and the college program helps bring down wall into the network of companies that Disney is associated with. A couple of which I wouldn't mind being a part of.

In general it's been pretty easy going to work and then going to the parks on my day off. I don't have a car but it's not a problem since Disney has buses to take us almost everywhere. I start classes here next week and hope that they go well. I'll keep you up dated on classes and how moving into a opportunity with my major goes.

A Day Off In Hollywood Studios

So today I had the day off so me and my roomie Jess decided to spend the day at Hollywood Studios...it was so much fun I can safely say that it is my favorite park I've been on almost all of the attractions and I think the best position I could possibly have would be a camera operator at American Idol, Or the Lights, Motors, Action! because I'm studying Cinematography after all and it would always be fun and different. Plus it would defiantly give me the experience I need. I love that there are so many options here at Disney and if you want to explore another opportunity all you have to do is ask and that's exactly what I plan to do.

Everything Is Illuminated...

I got to go to Illuminations (The Epcot fireworks show) last night. Me and all the girls (me and my 5 roomies) had dinner in China and dessert and watched the fireworks in France. It was awesome!! I also got to finally have fun in Hollywood studios with my roomie Meghan. We got to ride Rockin' Roller coaster once and I had no idea that it shot you off so fast like a rocket!! I had no idea that it sling shot you off so fast I was completely unprepared my face was horrendous. With Tower Of Terror we got to go on it 3 times in a row and if you lift up your feet it's like your floating it was amazing!! and I knew what was gonna happen but I still wasn't prepared for it. I can't wait till I get to see other firework shows. I also found out that I can talk to someone about working with a local news station while I'm here that shoots stuff for Disney and their videos that are used in the park and I can probably set up stuff to meet with someone involved in one of the Movie companies that Disney owns. I'll keep you guys up on how work goes.

Hollywoood Here I Come....

Today was my first day in Disney's Hollywood Studios! It was awesome!! It begins with the golden age of Hollywood and continues on through time till the 50's and then some. I enjoyed all the fun facts I learned about the movies that Disney made under the other company names that they own. I was psyched to learn about all the Academy's that they have earned over the years. I just want to spend all of my time in the Hollywood Studios Park mozying around. Love Loved Loved It!! I Will totally tell you more once I finish training tomorrow.

A Whole New Experience...

Today.... Was my first time ever and Epcot and let me just say that....WOW!!! I didn't realize that the big Golf Ball thing was actually silver and not white!! My roommates have been before, I was like a five year old just pointing at things and saying "ooh look!!". I have 5 roomies and with me that makes 6 so our 3 bedroom 3 bath dorm is full but we love it. We all get along great. Last night we all went down to Downtown Disney, It was my first time there but everyone else had already been there. I got to see part of the fireworks show at Magic Kingdom and I also got to see the globe they use for illuminations at Epcot. Everything here is magical and can all be made better by the fact that being a film major helps because Disney owns Miramax films too.
More to come I promise...