I Get Bored Too Easy..............

Way way too easily!! I'm bored of my life and I've kind of been in a routine for about 3 months now and I'm bored. But then it may be partially because I feel like I have no social life and that I just go to work and sleep. Speaking of which I had a crazy dream last night.... It was about Ethan (A guy I kinda used to date...it's complicated) and he came to visit me and so did his family and we were so I love with one another. He bought me a new car and we we holding hands a bunch and cuddling and such. Then I woke up. I don't know like I still like him but since I'm in PA and he's in TN it's not like we can date. I don't plan on going back to TN anytime soon.  Anyways I digress..... I don't know if I'm going back to school 'cause I sure can't pay for it myself.  I want a degree but why go back to school if I don't know what to study. I kind of fly in multiple directions and I can't find one area that I am completely drawn to. Emily has music, Alex and Bekah have graphic design Anthony has film. I mean I kinda had film but then I haven't gotten back to it you know. I really need to see what I'm drawn to I know I'm creative but I Love Math, Music, Movies, Helping Others, And Taking Things Apart, I can't really stick to one though since I get bored so easily. Too easily. I love certain T.V. shows too. And maybe I use to word Love too lightly. I guess I want to find love and feel accomplished. Funny thing is I thought that I was the more on track of my 2 siblings and me. Funny thing is they're both graduated from school and have found their significant others. Me I'm trying to decide whether I'm going back to school or not and I don't really have any dating prospects. Oh well tis life "They Say That, What Doesn't Kill Us Makes Us Who We Are.." Maybe I should just be a writer. Then I'd probably just write about my problems. I am aware of the fact that I complain too much. I hate that I'm making my parents unhappy because I'm unhappy. I shouldn't be unhappy I have 2 jobs I'm healthy I have parents who care about me I have friends. I dunno what's missing.......... Oh well either way I'm gonna keep analysis 'cause that's what I do... Nothing else to say today.........