So I don't wanna live my life in a Dead End Job. I Don't want to work at Starbucks for too long it's just a constant flow of income to pay for bills....
I want to fall in love
I want to see the world
I want to know who I am
I'd love to be famous
I'd love to be rich
I get bored really easily, I want to be held, I need a hug one of those tight everything is gonna be alright hugs. I hate that I obsess over finding solutions. I wish I could figure this all out. I wish I would be happy about the way my life is turning out. I wish I had a clear plan for my life or at least a plan that I could rely on. I wish my Mom wouldn't crush my dreams or my plans. Sure it's not all her fault but it doesn't help that she decides what I can and cannot do. I feel so stressed out a good amount of the time.
I wish I didn't over think and over analyze or that I could find a way to work my over-thinking and analyzing into a career a well paying career, not a job a career.
I'm trying to not complain as much but I guess I find it hard when I'm not really happy with the state of my life right now. Sure I could turn to God but it's like that song by The Script "Breakeven" ~I'm Still Alive But I'm Barely Breathing, Just Prayin' To A God That I Don't Believe In~ That's how I feel....
Trying to figure it all out.......
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