I'd travel to all the places I want to go to. I want to go to NYC again, I need to go back to Nashville to get my stuff. I've always wanted to visit Chicago. If I could I'd just travel all over the U.S.A. and then I'd go to Europe. I'm kind of contemplating moving back to the U.K. I don't know maybe if I can go to school there it can help me to get over there. I'll have to figure it all out and really look over the possibilities. I feel like I'm at a crossroads or the edge of a cliff. It's not that I have a lot on my mind it's that I have so many choices. I wish I had found one thing I'm really good at and I could've just latched onto that. Used it to form my life around. I'm okay at lots of things but there's nothing I'm outstanding at. Therefore nothing I currently see myself doing in the future. I know I want to get married fall in love that whole bit. That's if it's in the cards. I guess I just have to wait and see but I HATE the idea of waiting around and for my life to happen.
If I had the guts I would do what I want to get the guy that I miss spending time with and getting to see. I'd be who I want to be. I'd have found some way to be back at school and I'd know who I want to be and where I'm going with my life or I'd be okay just spending time with the guy, he'd be my guy, us swooning over one another. I'd have him and he'd be all I need.
Oh If only life were that easy........
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