I'm Not Even At Work Yet.........

And I'm already pissed off about it!! Vicky was sick and couldn't make it in last night so there were only 2 of us to close last night 'cause nobody could make it in. I know close wasn't great but like I said there were only two of us and it took us 2 hours to close. I did all the dishes and Amber filled and put away the case, swept, mopped and collected trash. I got a text today before I even made it work, (which I'm not at yet I don't start till 3) Vicky is still sick which I know she didn't do on purpose and I'm okay with that. I immediately called the store to let them know and see who I could find to cover her shifts tonight and tomorrow night. When I called the store I asked how close was, like I said I know it wasn't great but I did leave a heads up note saying that there was only 2 of us and that we were out of a few things.  What was I supposed to do we got busy and there were only 2 of us even with 3 of us it would've sucked royally. Ugh!! FML!! Gosh I can't wait to start my new job and not have to put up with this shit!! It's not like a half assed last night either. We closed at 8 and we didn't get out of there till 10. 2 hours of work just to close is not half assing it!!

I give up damn the close 'could've been way worse. I think we left the soups out and I'm not sure if we missed anything else. If we did I bet it was nit picky stuff that's not a huge issue. I think I forgot water in the kettles too which isn't a big issue, but kinda sucks.

"Fuck Guys Tonight....."

Yea screw guys they seem to be more of an issue, I'm going to let them come to me. No game though Bleh :P I don't want a guy who falls too fast 'cause that means he doesn't actually know me or he thinks he knows me or imagines me to be what he wants.

I don't use guys they just act like someone else and besides you can't get played if you don't want to be.

I will just be myself, I'm quirky and I'm silly I have a slight Starbucks addiction and I'm slow to commitment but I will make and effort and put in the time if I think it's worth it.

New Year New Outlook....... Lots of New Beginnings........... Let's Go

New Year....

So I gots me a new job for the new year!! Yayayay I am all kinds of excited!! Ecstatic really! I can't wait to start my new career!! Yay!!! Moving On Up!!  My new years kinda sucked...... but I refuse to dwell on it.
Resolutions:
-Not Dwell On Things
-Get Healthier
-Work Hard At This New Job!
-Get Less Technology Obsessed!!
-Try To Stop Thinking About My Love Life Or Lack There Of So Much
-Work Out More
-Be A Less Aggressive Driver, (Speeding Less) 
Umm that's it really :) Life's picking up and heading in a good direction right about now...


Like I said BRING IT ON 2011

Dear John Mayer............

Why Is your love life such a mess? You're soo cute! and your songs are pretty awesome. Maybe you should stop dating celebrities and date someone normal? I mean you dated Taylor Swift, and how'd that turn out? Huh "Dear John"? Now I'm gonna give you the benefit of the doubt and hope that you can sort things out 'cause I'm sure once you find the one or someone better you'll work it out. It's just too bad 'cause I'm sure you're a great guy and boy do you have talent. (:

Well in other news........... I'm enjoying single life, flirting and such ;) Haha and I mean I don't need a boyfriend right now I'm good. I have good friends and a good family. I just wish my Mum would stop mentioning Jon. I mean I don't really wanna think about him right now 'cause he did this and she wasn't there to see his irrational acts or childish actions. Plus like I said I'm not putting up with him if he's gonna be like that. Hmmm..... Well I'm gonna take the hands-off approach and just see where things go......

Fuck You Dude.......

So way to creep on my blog.......Gosh my blog is a way for me to say how I feel in unedited terms. I write it all down and review it later. I'm a thinker and I over-think everything. The last post I wrote was so I could look at things and how the seem from the outside and other perspective. I have ears I can listen talk to me or call me don't write me a note trying to guilt trip me. I didn't get any of you're texts till like 5pm and you decided to creep out my blog and assume the worst!! I was going to give you a chance but since you assumed the worst and made an asshole move you lost it!! I am so done. I give up why oh why can't life be easier? Ugh!! :0 ):


I think I should just be single for a while. Just live the fun single life like I'm meant to and if something happens it happens. If someone I know realizes they like me then hey yay! but as of right now I don't really want to date anyone....... :[ I need to find a better job an keep myself above water..... That's all I have to say.

:(........ Bleh........UGH.......... FML............IDK......... :(

Oh boys we hate them but we love them......
So the guy who broke up with me wants me back........... I don't know what to do...... He's a really nice guy but I mean what if he changes his mind or gets scared again then what? Huh I'm SOL and back to square one! He's one of those guys who's like friends with lots of girls but is kinda country. And me, I'm an indie rock girl who loves colors and music and sleeping. I don't know I mean maybe I just want to be single....... As much of a nice guy as he is I don't know if he's right for me and as much as he's willing to make an effort I don't think I am. As my friend Dani would say he's not "Jewish" enough lol and that's just not kosher. lol Silly I know but I like it. I don't know what it is but guys who look Jewish just ahh I dunno I find them oh so attractive. I like never ever go for blonds unless they're soooo sooo hot!! I mean I'm only 20 he's 24 and he was engaged before. I don't know if he'll ever get over her and I don't know if I wanna take that chance. It makes me think of this song Talk You Down And Before The Worst by The Script. I love them btw.... I don't know I keep going over and over it. I mean maybe I should give him a chance but I maybe not........ My Mum says I should but I mean I don't know It's so complicated I mean one of my really good friends has a friend who I think is really cute and I could see where that goes and like I dated this guy around this time last year long distance, and he's one of my best friends and I don't know if I've always loved him why date someone else Oh I don't know I don't know..........

The Wisom Of A Good Friend.......

My FB Status Was......

I'm Only 20 And Yet I Feel The Need To Know The Meaning Of Life......

My friend Evon Commented and said:

"ive been there. well, you know what i mean lol. truly tho..."live" "breathe" and "enjoy" life as it comes to you. things will go up and things will go down. things wont always seem right, and things will sometimes make sense. thats part of ...the mystery, everyone perceives it differently and will go through there own cycle of curiousoity. think about how different you are now from when you came home from college. like, you went through your "own" meaning of life changing events. there is no set standard for a good life, a good meaning. wow. i had a good breakfast today, thats why im so philosophical. :) i heart youu."

 

True Friends Really Know How To Make You Feel Better :D