Dear John Mayer............

Why Is your love life such a mess? You're soo cute! and your songs are pretty awesome. Maybe you should stop dating celebrities and date someone normal? I mean you dated Taylor Swift, and how'd that turn out? Huh "Dear John"? Now I'm gonna give you the benefit of the doubt and hope that you can sort things out 'cause I'm sure once you find the one or someone better you'll work it out. It's just too bad 'cause I'm sure you're a great guy and boy do you have talent. (:

Well in other news........... I'm enjoying single life, flirting and such ;) Haha and I mean I don't need a boyfriend right now I'm good. I have good friends and a good family. I just wish my Mum would stop mentioning Jon. I mean I don't really wanna think about him right now 'cause he did this and she wasn't there to see his irrational acts or childish actions. Plus like I said I'm not putting up with him if he's gonna be like that. Hmmm..... Well I'm gonna take the hands-off approach and just see where things go......

Fuck You Dude.......

So way to creep on my blog.......Gosh my blog is a way for me to say how I feel in unedited terms. I write it all down and review it later. I'm a thinker and I over-think everything. The last post I wrote was so I could look at things and how the seem from the outside and other perspective. I have ears I can listen talk to me or call me don't write me a note trying to guilt trip me. I didn't get any of you're texts till like 5pm and you decided to creep out my blog and assume the worst!! I was going to give you a chance but since you assumed the worst and made an asshole move you lost it!! I am so done. I give up why oh why can't life be easier? Ugh!! :0 ):


I think I should just be single for a while. Just live the fun single life like I'm meant to and if something happens it happens. If someone I know realizes they like me then hey yay! but as of right now I don't really want to date anyone....... :[ I need to find a better job an keep myself above water..... That's all I have to say.

:(........ Bleh........UGH.......... FML............IDK......... :(

Oh boys we hate them but we love them......
So the guy who broke up with me wants me back........... I don't know what to do...... He's a really nice guy but I mean what if he changes his mind or gets scared again then what? Huh I'm SOL and back to square one! He's one of those guys who's like friends with lots of girls but is kinda country. And me, I'm an indie rock girl who loves colors and music and sleeping. I don't know I mean maybe I just want to be single....... As much of a nice guy as he is I don't know if he's right for me and as much as he's willing to make an effort I don't think I am. As my friend Dani would say he's not "Jewish" enough lol and that's just not kosher. lol Silly I know but I like it. I don't know what it is but guys who look Jewish just ahh I dunno I find them oh so attractive. I like never ever go for blonds unless they're soooo sooo hot!! I mean I'm only 20 he's 24 and he was engaged before. I don't know if he'll ever get over her and I don't know if I wanna take that chance. It makes me think of this song Talk You Down And Before The Worst by The Script. I love them btw.... I don't know I keep going over and over it. I mean maybe I should give him a chance but I maybe not........ My Mum says I should but I mean I don't know It's so complicated I mean one of my really good friends has a friend who I think is really cute and I could see where that goes and like I dated this guy around this time last year long distance, and he's one of my best friends and I don't know if I've always loved him why date someone else Oh I don't know I don't know..........

The Wisom Of A Good Friend.......

My FB Status Was......

I'm Only 20 And Yet I Feel The Need To Know The Meaning Of Life......

My friend Evon Commented and said:

"ive been there. well, you know what i mean lol. truly tho..."live" "breathe" and "enjoy" life as it comes to you. things will go up and things will go down. things wont always seem right, and things will sometimes make sense. thats part of ...the mystery, everyone perceives it differently and will go through there own cycle of curiousoity. think about how different you are now from when you came home from college. like, you went through your "own" meaning of life changing events. there is no set standard for a good life, a good meaning. wow. i had a good breakfast today, thats why im so philosophical. :) i heart youu."

 

True Friends Really Know How To Make You Feel Better :D

Sooo.... A Couple Things Have Changed And I'm Thinking Agian, Dangerous I Know........

Sometimes my life really does seem like a soap opera so I was dating this guy. It was only officially for like a week and then he decided that "we should just be friends" it came out of nowhere I mean like we barely were together then like we weren't it kinda make me feel like what was even the point? But life throws stuff at you sometimes that you just don't expect I've still got my friends. Evon was right I guess. I mean I was more shocked than anything and I realized all the friends I have the girls at work the ladies I used to work with at Starbucks and my best friend Ethan, too bad he lives so far away. I know if I still lived there or he lived here things would be different but it's tough 'cause he's not here but he is only a phone call away or a text away and I hope he know that about me too if he's happy about something he can just give me a call or send me a text. Last semester we were kind of dating but I mean we never got to be face to face :( except skype. Still through all that we're still really good friends. I still have the valentines card that he sent me last year I have most of it memorized too. It's a pretty special card : ) and it has Disney princesses on it :D. Life would be so different if I had just stayed at Disney or in Nash. Maybe I should just stop going over it in my head and let things flow. Hmmm gonnna go ponder agian.....